CH-25: I was completely insane at that time
CH-25: I was completely insane at that time
He let go of my throat and went to the door, I collapsed down near the walls as well. I said him when he was about to leave the bedroom with that woman, "Mr. Stranger I wish we didn't meet each other." I said in low voice but it was hearable for him. After hearing my words, he slammed the door and left.
He had closed the door and left from there, but I was still there. It was very difficult for me to believe in those things. A person who didn't like a tear in my eye but he was the one who cause the tears in my eyes that day.
I was shattered like a mirror which was impossible to remade. His words were ringing in my ears. What do I have, for which he made me his pawn? He had completely broken me. In the cycle of questions, I was so caught up that it was impossible for me that time to get out.
But I wanted an answer to my question. I leaned against the wall and got up. My throat and my back has got badly hurt. I slowly walked towards the door and I started to open the door but it didn't open because he had locked the door from the outside.
My patience was running out. My weakness was beginning to overwhelm me. I was having trouble in breathing. "Mr. Stranger...op.....ope....open the....d....door and give me.....ans.....answer.....of my.....que....question." I was screaming ,I was shouting, I was yelling. But no one was coming. I was completely mad. I couldn't believe it.
"Mr. Stranger....d...d...don't do...t...that to me. Please.....op...op....open the door. I am your....w....wi....wife, please...please..open the door, please open, I beg you. You.....ma...made....pro...promise to my mother that you will take my care, so how can you change in only one day, you.....you...you said you love me."
I was beginning to feel like this was my nightmare. It felt like waking up quickly from this nightmare and embracing my husband tightly and tell him that 'don't leave me'. By that time, I had lost my mind. The difference between truth and falsehood was beyond my comprehension. The only thought I had was to wake up from this nightmare and go to my husband. Because in just those two days, I was addicted to him.
I was crying out very loud, I was calling him. I was banging my head against the wall. I made my condition very bad that time. My only wish was that my nightmare should end and for that, I was starting to worsen my condition. I was literally biting my palm. I was completely insane at that time.
I was calling him but he did not come. In the end I lost completely myself. My asthma had reached its peak and my head was starting to hurt.
My body was lying lifeless on the floor. It was very difficult to breathe slowly slowly my eyes get closed and then darkness covered me completely.