Did He Think This Way Too?
Did He Think This Way Too?
Her tears gushed out.
She bent down, lay on the bed and began to sob loudly.
Yan Rusheng heard her cries, and his heart softened. "Alright, I won't touch you if you're unwilling. Why are you still crying?"
He turned around with the intention of leaving.
He had barely taken a few steps when Xuxu grabbed a pillow and hurled it at his back. "You're a jerk, a horrible jerk!"
Her aim was accurate this time.
"Xuxu." Yan Rusheng turned back and sprang forward with a huge step. He pressed the sobbing Xuxu down beneath him and looked at her tenderly while he wiped her tears away.
Due to the drug, Xuxu's defense against him had long been crushed when she felt his warm breath. The more he helped to wipe her tears, the more heavily she sobbed.
"Ah Sheng."
She pouted and her voice was filled with resentment.
Yan Rusheng couldn't control himself any longer and he kissed her.
Because of the drug, Xuxu instinctively hugged Yan Rusheng back.
Other than calling him 'Ah Sheng', she didn't say anything else.
Yan Rusheng kept calling her name repeatedly in her ears.
Every time he called for her, he seemed to be holding back his words out of hesitation.
Xuxu bundled herself up with the blanket when it was over. She lay on the bed, weary and limp. Closing her eyes, she didn't reply Yan Rusheng at all.
She only had one thing on her mind: they just needed a child in their marriage…
She heard the sounds of water in the bathroom and soon after, came the sounds of the wardrobe being opened. Shortly, the door was opened.
She knew that Yan Rusheng had left.
Only then did her eyelids flutter. She stared at the ceiling in a daze.
'Do you want to be abandoned by the Yan family after giving them a child?'
Ming Zhongsheng's words echoed once again and billowing waves surged in her heart.
Suddenly, Yan Rusheng was yearning for a child with her. Was it because Fang Jiayin was back?
That night he had called Fang Jiayin's name when he was drunk. She could only imagine how much he missed her.
Now that Fang Jiayin was back, everything he had done for her today and his abrupt gentleness towards her were for the sake of having a child with her. It was all so that he could fulfill Grandmother's final wish.
Then he could finally return to Fang Jiayin. Xuxu would be redundant in the Yan family and eventually abandoned by him.
Did he think this way too?
Xuxu couldn't stomach the thought of this. He had hidden the truth about Grandmother's death from her. For his own selfish motives, he had drugged her. He didn't take any pity on her, so why should she give him what he wanted?
Yan Rusheng, you promised that you would atone for your sins together with me!
Xuxu felt like she had seen the light at the end of the tunnel, reviving like a character in a game. She was bursting with fighting spirit.
She got up, walked to the bathroom and stood under the showerhead. She allowed the water to batter her body mercilessly.
After she had washed away her humiliation and sweat, she put on one of Yan Rusheng's bathrobes and went back to bed.
She was too exhausted and fell asleep the minute she lay on the bed.
She seemed to hear a familiar voice whispering to her in her dreams, 'Xuxu, I love you.'
But she was too sleepy and couldn't differentiate whether it was a dream or reality. She forgot everything when she woke up the next morning.
Xuxu opened her eyes; the man next to her was still in a deep sleep. She stole a glance at him and lifted the blanket gingerly as she felt for the edge of the bed.