C1633 Until the Negative Distance
C1633 Until the Negative Distance
Su Ke looked at Gu Jingyu and bit her lips. Finally, she said with certainty, "Yes, I want to know."
"Okay, I will tell you." Gu Jingyu closed his eyes, as if he was making up his mind.
Su Ke looked at Gu Jingyu, who was like this, and for a moment, he was also affected by the sadness in his eyes just now.
His small hand involuntarily turned back and held his hand. " If it really is your death, then I will accompany you. Gu Jingyu, facing it alone, what should I do? It's not as strong as two people facing it together, you say, no matter what, I'll be with you."
"Actually, I've been much better in the past two years because I barely have any problems. That's why I found you. That's why I wanted to get married. If it was five years ago, I don't think I would have agreed to it. Not because I don't want to get married, but because I don't want to hurt you. "
"Gu Jingyu, what do you mean?" Su Ke was completely stunned. She looked at him. In her memory, he had always been healthy. She never knew what kind of illness he had.
But what he meant now was... It was as if he was an incurable patient.
But she really couldn't tell.
Gu Jingyu pursed his lips and hesitated again. After a long time, he said softly: "Sometimes, I become someone I don't even know myself. I don't know what that person will do. I only know some bloody scenes that he passed on to me. Keke, I don't want that person to hurt you. "
That was why he never agreed to marry her.
Su Ke was stunned. She carefully recalled Gu Jingyu's words and analyzed it again and again. After thinking for a long time, she finally understood a little and asked tentatively, "You have schizophrenia?"
When she said schizophrenia, su was very careful.
Because, if Gu Jingyu was really such a patient, or what he was most afraid of was others directly asking him if he had this illness.
This illness was very unfamiliar to her. She had only heard of it occasionally, and she didn't understand it at all.
Thus, when she heard it like this at this moment, su was shocked.
After that, she fixed her gaze on Gu Jingyu, thinking that he was telling her that it wasn't the case. He didn't suffer from this illness.
Because in her limited understanding of this illness, it was a very difficult illness to cure.
Perhaps it would not recover for the rest of her life. Perhaps the two personalities that suddenly split into two would merge into one person and would never be separated into two again.
"Yes." Gu Jingyu nodded heavily and then lowered his head, like a child who had done something wrong. He did not even dare to look at Su Ke.
"How many personalities do you have?" Su Ke was shocked. Then she shook Gu Jingyu's shoulder in shock.
"Two. One is me, and the other is that fierce and ruthless person."
"You know his existence, but you don't know what he did when he appeared, right?" That's why he said he was afraid that the other him would hurt her.
"Yes, I never knew what he did. I just vaguely felt that after he used my body, there would always be a bloody smell lingering in my mind. No matter how I washed it, I couldn't wash it away."
"Is the frequency of his appearance very low now?" That was why he agreed to marry her.
"Hm, it's been more than a year since he appeared" Gu Jingyu nodded.
It had been more than a year, and it had been so long since he last saw him. He thought he would never show up again.
That was why he agreed to marry Su Ke.
"So, is it really because of this that you were unwilling to marry me back then?" Su Ke suddenly felt that this man was a little silly. This was a sickness, a sickness.
He refused to marry her because he was sick. If he wasn't stupid, then what was?
If he was sick, he would treat her. She couldn't reject marriage because of this.
"Well, he will hurt people. No, he will kill people."
"Hehe, did he share the scene of him killing people with you?"
"No, it's just that I occasionally think of some bloody scenes that I've never experienced before. I knew it was something he had done before." Gu Jingyu explained.
This sounded a little mysterious.
It was as if he was listening to a fairy tale.
He still hung his head low, like a child who had done something wrong.
If he had to do this, it would make Su Ke's heart ache instantly.
She immediately grabbed Gu Jingyu's hand and also hugged him.
She held his head and leaned into his arms. "If it's only because of this, Gu Jingyu, you are wrong."
"Hmm?" Gu Jingyu asked in confusion.
"If you refuse me because of your illness, you are really wrong. If you had told me earlier, perhaps... We had children long ago, and your illness had already been cured. The strength of two people is definitely greater than the strength of one person. If he appears... I'm not afraid of him either, because... He is you, you are him."
Even if that personality is always full of violent tendencies, there are times when killing is tiring.
Furthermore, she had never heard of such a homicidal maniac. Didn't that mean that it wasn't like what Gu Jingyu had said? Did that mean that he was killing people everywhere?
After all, he didn't know about it.
He only felt a little.
"Su Ke, did you say that because you pity me?" Gu Jingyu's body suddenly tensed up.
The reason why he did not say it before was because he did not want others to pity him.
He didn't even mention Lih Lingye, Ji Yichen, and Mu Yebai.
He didn't want anyone to pity him.
Being a man, the word 'pity' was the last thing he wanted.
"No." Su Ke's eyes lit up as she looked at Gu Jingyu. "I didn't say that because I pitied you. It's because I love you. Gu Jingyu, I love you. I've loved you for many years, because I love you. That's why I hate you. Do you understand?" He raised his face. She had to solemnly tell him that only by loving him deeply would she hate him.
However, at this moment, she knew the reason why he had rejected her in the past. All of her hatred vanished in an instant, or all of it turned into love.
"Keke..." Then, Su Ke wasn't the only one who was moved, there was also Gu Jingyu.
He suddenly pushed Su Ke's hand away and took the initiative to hold Su Ke's face. A handsome face slowly approached Su Ke.
Three inches.
Two inches.
One inch.
Until the negative distance.
Only the smell of two people was left in the air. It was so bright and beautiful.
Outside the window, two white clouds were chasing each other. It was so beautiful.
Su Ke finally let go of her guard.
Yes, at this moment, she let go of the guard that she had been unable to break for so many years. When she completely relaxed, she finally knew that she still loved this man and had never changed.
Or, from this moment on, she would hold his hand and write a story that belonged to the two of them together.
Only deep love.