C101 Tell Me
C101 Tell Me
His thoughts drifted to a long time ago. Scenes appeared one after another in Ye Shaoting's mind. From the time he and Mo Yawen fell in love to the time when they had a child. Until the day the child was cawing, these days that should have been extremely enviable suddenly broke away from their original path one day. All of these scenes that had almost driven Ye Shaoting crazy appeared in Ye Shaoting's mind once more.
Ye Shaoting could only bitterly smile in pain. The pain in his heart had long become numb to the point that he could not feel it anymore.
Three years. For a whole three years, Ye Shaoting had not seen Mo Yawen again. He did not even hear a sound. As for him, the moment Mo Yawen disappeared, he had been frantically searching for Mo Yawen. In the past, apart from finding her whereabouts, he had been constantly torturing himself.
He hated his own incompetence. Otherwise, Mo Yawen would not have left him. During these three years, he constantly reflected on his past mistakes. However, before he could truly prove to her that he really couldn't leave her, she had already steeled her heart and abandoned all traces of his ruthlessness and disappeared without a trace.
He did all of the hard work that ordinary people couldn't do in exchange for her return. It had already been three years, but she still hadn't found her. Perhaps in Ye Shaoting's subconscious mind, what he did wasn't enough to exchange for her return. "
Hsu Qianqian, as Mo Yawen's good friend, had been struggling between these two conflicted people.
She knew that Mo Yawen still loved Ye Shaoting, but she had never been able to overcome the hurdle in her heart regarding the child. It was also because Ye Shaoting hadn't handled Ji Yiqing well that she had the opportunity to steal the only child between them. When these two mistakes were added together, it became a devil in the bottom of her heart. Similarly, Ye Shaoting could not let go of Mo Yawen. He loved her deeply. He could even use his own life to exchange for her safety.
What lay between the two of them was not only the dead child, but also that vicious woman, Ji Yiqing. Without her, perhaps the child would not have been lost. Mo Yawen and Ye Shaoting would not have had such a huge misunderstanding between them, and it would not have resulted in this person who was thousands of miles away still unable to stop loving each other.
But if it was not for her, she might still have fallen into the hands of others. The consequences were unknown.
He looked at Ye Shaoting's persistence for the past three years and repeatedly begged her to tell Yawen the news. Other than feeling heartache, there were even a few times that she almost could not control herself and wanted to tell her the news about Yawen. That proud man in the past was able to do such a lowly thing. No one would be able to bear to see it.
However, she could not say it. If she said it, Yawen would probably hate herself too.
Forgive her selfishness.
Furthermore, Yawen left very firmly at that time, and her heart was even more shaken.
Was it that time was not long enough? Should they give them more time? Perhaps Yawen would come back and start over with Ye Shaoting once she thought it through?
Hsu Qianqian did not know either. Now, it could only depend on their luck. Would the heavens be able to make them reunite?
It was ten o'clock at night. For those who loved nightlife, this was the most exciting moment for them.
When they entered the bar, they first saw colorful neon lights revolving around people. Everyone was twisting their proud bodies together with the dance music. They enjoyed it very much.
The moving music and the dim lights seemed to have no effect on the man on the sofa in the corner.
He looked expressionlessly at the crowd that was celebrating and drank hard liquor. Compared to the people dancing on the dance floor, he looked very lonely.
The women who came to talk to him were all chased away by his hot temper. However, there were still many women who came to talk to him because of his handsome appearance.
On this day, Hsu Qianqian had nothing to do. Coincidentally, she was not in a good mood, so she followed her friends to the bar. She had just sat down for a few minutes and the chair had not even been warmed by her. Her gaze stopped on a man.
Beside that man sat a woman with an extremely good figure and a slightly prettier appearance than ordinary people. She would tease that man from time to time, and the man beside her, other than being indifferent, almost hit her. Not only was that woman not afraid, she even took an inch for an inch.
Hsu Qianqian really could not stand it anymore. She greeted her friend and walked towards Ye Shaoting's side.
"Get lost!" Hsu Qianqian was a little angry. Since her best friend's husband dared to flirt with him? He didn't know what death was!
Not only was the woman not afraid, she also provoked, "I snatched this man first. You must know the rules. "
Hsu Qianqian was too lazy to explain to her and directly dragged her and fiercely threw her out. The woman was flustered and exasperated and did not want to flare up, so she could only leave with her tail between her legs.
Hsu Qianqian directly sat beside the man and her beautiful brows knitted slightly. Did he think of Yawen again? That's why he came here alone to drink?
The man impatiently thought that it was another woman who came to talk to him. Just as he was about to get angry, he looked up and saw what was in front of him. It was Hsu Qianqian. She instantly lost her temper.
There were many times when he asked her to tell him about Mo Yawen but every time, she kept her mouth shut and did not even reveal a single word to him. On one hand, she was proud that Yawen had such a friend. On the other hand, she was distressed that she could not obtain her trust.
Ye Shaoting was silent. Annoyed, he pulled open his collar and drank another cup. The extremely strong liquor made him frown.
His eyes glazed over as he thought of Yawen again.
"Did you know? For the past three years, I have never stopped wanting to find her. But she. . . She kept thinking about escaping from me until I couldn't find her. " Ye Shaoting paused for a moment and smiled bitterly. He drank another cup before he slowly said, "I once thought that as long as I love her enough, I will be good to her for an indefinite period of time. That way, she would never have the thought of leaving me. Now it seems that I am still too naive "
Ye Shaoting seemed to be a little drunk. He started to talk too much.
"I always thought Ji Qingyi would not be an obstacle between us. She would not be able to cause any harm to us. However, the more he trusted her, the more terrifying the things she would do. It is my fault for being so self-righteous that it caused the death of my child and today's situation. "
Hsu Qianqian remained silent and quietly sat beside Ye Shaoting to listen to him. She also did not interrupt Ye Shaoting's words. She also knew that what Ye Shaoting needed the most at this moment was a listener. He only needed to quietly stay by his side and listen to him speak alone. Perhaps. . . He just wanted to give a simple explanation of what had been frozen for a long time to make his heart feel better.
"When Yawen first disappeared, I would go and beg Mo's mother and Mo's father. I would even kneel down at all costs to beg for their forgiveness. In exchange, they would ignore me after all. I have lost all my pride. All my pride, I just want to ask her to come back. Give me another chance, but I'll never have another chance like this again. "
"At the beginning, I couldn't sleep at night. I would dream of a dead child and dream of Yawen's hateful eyes asking me to return the child to her. She cried and said that she hated me. . . " As if recalling the situation in his dream again, Ye Shaoting buried his face in his hands painfully. After a while, He eased his emotions and said," I want to use alcohol to relieve my pain. But the more I drink, the more drunk I get. . . The more awake I become. The moment Yawen lost her child, she had a look of despair on her face. When she found out that Ji Qingyi was the one who did this, she looked at her. She looked like she had lost control and cried in front of the child's grave. . . Everything was being played in front of my eyes like a movie. I almost broke down. "
" But I can't. I know Yawen blamed me. But I want to make it up to her. I want to find her. I feel her pain quite a lot. The child has resolutely become a part of my life. How could I not feel pain for his death? However, the pain was also like this. The child had long disappeared. The only thing I need to do now is to let Yawen return to my side. Let me have a chance to make it up to her. "
"Later on, they said that since she didn't want to come out and see me, then I will do my best to let her see. I think that's right, if she doesn't come out to see me, then I'll let my news spread all over the world, leaving her with nowhere to run"
"I know forcing her to accept him will be painful, and I also know that she hasn't given up on loving me, it's just that she won't be able to get through herself, she won't be able to get through that hurdle in her heart If she stops advancing, then I'll try my best to run in front of her "
" That's why I pull myself together again. While trying my best to find her, I will also turn the pain of losing her into motivation. I will try my best to make the company bigger and stronger so that it will have influence all over the world. Every day there will be news about me around the world, so that she will see me "
"But now, I've done it. She still hasn't appeared yet. It's been three whole years. Every day, I'm filled with anticipation for her to appear. However, the more I invest, the greater my disappointment becomes. 365 days a year, adding up to 1095 days. I haven't even seen a shadow similar to her in the past 1,000 days. What should I do?"
Ye Shaoting spoke very calmly, so calm that no one could feel that this was something that had happened to him in the past.
He emptied his mind. His eyes were filled with confusion and emptiness. He was already drunk.
There were already five empty bottles on the table, but he tried his best to make himself look normal, causing Hsu Qianqian's heart to quickly collapse.
Looking at the Ye Shaoting who had completely fallen asleep from drinking too much wine in front of her, this time, she could not bear to refuse him to tell Yawen the news again.
It had been three years. In three whole years, she had rejected any news about Yawen from him over a hundred times. It seemed like it was already enough!
Hsu Qianqian had been hesitating. She accidentally saw Ye Shaoting lying on the table and did not sleep well. The door was tightly knitted. Did he dream about something bad again?
She muttered from time to time. "Yawen. . . Yawen. . . Where are you?"