Don't Go Against My Mommy

"Fei Fei, what does the Soong Ze you know look like?" Soong Ze had never heard of the impression he had in Qin Fei's heart. Since there was a chance, he asked directly.    

    

"You look much more cheerful, but your eyes are still filled with loneliness. Your brows are also full of melancholy." Qin Fei looked at Soong Ze guiltily. She felt that it was all because of her. If it was not for her, Soong Ze would not be like this.    

    

He looked cheerful, but this sentence suddenly changed in Soong Ze's ears. How could he not know what was in his heart? Ever since she chose Lin Yuelin, his heart had been dead, completely dead.    

    

Qin Fei asked almost aggressively. Soong Ze felt that he could not deal with her bit by bit. The expression on his face had changed from the initial naturally undisciplined to somewhat uneasy. He did not want to see sympathy in Qin Fei's eyes. It made him feel really pitiful.    

    

Qin Fei was currently suffering from depression, but Soong Ze was not unfamiliar with the word depression. When he was young, he knew about the grudges between the Qin family and the Song Family. He knew that he had two personalities. One was crying and cursing in the dark, while the other was smiling and living in the light.    

    

Depression didn't sound like a serious illness, but only those who had experienced it would understand how terrifying it was. It was full of the desire to wear down your desire for life. It filled you with despair towards this world. Despair towards everyone around you, despair towards yourself. Then use the cruelest method to bid farewell to this world.    

    

Soong Ze could be considered lucky, but in the end, he actually recovered. It had been many years since he remembered that painful period of time, so he had already forgotten what kind of willpower he relied on to survive that period of time.    

    

Soong Ze had previously suffered from depression. Qin Fei did not know that Soong Ze was now beginning to feel depressed again. Qin Fei still did not know. He was not willing to let her know that the reason why he worked so hard to survive from the center of the storm was because he wanted her to see the perfect young man when she came back. But now, he was once again at the center of the storm. This time, he did not have any motivation to stand up.    

    

In order to not die, he could only find some things for himself to do. No matter what, as long as he could distract his attention, it would be fine.    

    

"Brother Song Ze, don't be silent. Speak. You seemed to not like to talk during that period of time. Then, you went overseas for a vacation. After you came back, you became unreasonable again, but you came back after you left for a period of time. Your personality changed tremendously. You must have experienced some kind of person or thing during this period of time." Although Qin Fei's IQ was not online during this period of time, if she really wanted to analyze when he started to change, she knew.    

    

Qin Fei felt a little guilty. She did not care much about Soong Ze. The young Soong Ze had always been brooding over his father's suicide. Perhaps he had already fallen ill at that time. However, Qin Fei had never realized that she was still acting spoiled towards him. He was unreasonable.    

    

At that time, she was not a competent girlfriend. She did not give Ze any concern and had always been a mental burden to him.    

    

Qin Fei kept saying that she had always regarded Soong Ze as her brother. How could she not care about her brother's sister? She only knew what she wanted from him, but she never gave him anything. She had never even entered his world.    

    

"Fei Fei, what's wrong? Why did you ask about what happened so long ago?" Soong Ze was afraid that Qin Fei would discover something. Although he was no longer calm, he still pretended to be calm on the surface.    

    

"I only care about myself in the past. I have never cared about you. I know it's too late now, but I still want to know. What have you experienced? " If Qin Fei had been more careful back then, perhaps Soong Ze wouldn't have become like this now.    

    

Lin Yuelin said that Luh Cheng had serious depression and schizophrenia. She realized that Soong Ze also seemed to have a precursor to this illness. She was afraid that he would really have this illness.    

    

"Fei Fei, don't ask anymore. The past has already passed. Why bring it up again to make me sad? " What Soong Ze needed was not Qin Fei's apology. What he needed was love. Since she could not give it to him, why should he shackle her?    

    

Qin Fei poured herself another cup of tea. She had always been very calm. It was just that Soong Ze felt that Qin Fei today was like a sharp knife that cut open all of his rotting wounds. He felt like he had nowhere to hide.    

    

"Since you don't want to talk about the past, let's talk about the current situation." Qin Fei's eyes had been locked on Soong Ze.    

    

What Qin Fei wanted to talk about the most was Soong Ze's current situation. Every day when she was with him, she felt that he was wearing a cheerful mask. She felt tired for him.    

    

Soong Ze did not want to talk about this topic anymore. He directly refused and said, "I don't want to talk about this."    

    

Qin Fei was a stubborn person. Anything she wanted to ask, there was nothing she could not ask.    

    

"Tell me, did something happen in He City?" Qin Fei hit the nail on the head.    

    

Soong Ze's eyes sparkled when he heard about the city. Qin Fei knew she had asked the right question.    

    

This city was not scary to Soong Ze. What was scary was that the city was connected to Mei Shuang, which made him want to run away.    

    

Soong Ze felt that he had really failed. He could not face Qin Fei's departure, and now he was running away from another woman.    

    

"Why do you want to talk about this city?" Soong Ze did not want to answer this question, so he could only ask Qin Fei.    

    

Qin Fei only guessed. After all, there was nothing wrong with the other parts. Only he secretly returned to China and did not return to B City. Instead, he stayed in H City for a long time. After he came back, he changed his appearance. It could only be said that what happened in that city made such a change.    

    

"Brother Song Ze, have you noticed that you have been avoiding my problem? Isn't this the place without silver? " In the past, Soong Ze would not lie in front of Qin Fei. He would answer whatever he asked. But now, Soong Ze already knew how to euphemistically avoid Qin Fei's questions.    

    

This could also be considered an improvement.    

    

"Fei Fei, the questions you asked don't have any substantial meaning. Can we talk about the current situation? What do you want to do? " Soong Ze did not want to continue talking about his questions with Qin Fei. Her questions were too sharp. Every problem hit the most sensitive part of his heart. If he continued to chat with Qin Fei, he would tell her everything.    

    

Qin Fei had been making tea the whole time. When she heard Soong Ze's words, her movements paused. It was only for a moment, but she started to look normal again. Qin Fei had never thought that she and Soong Ze would reach this step. He had already taken very heavy precautions against her. His heart had been open to her in the past, but now it was tightly wrapped around her. No one was allowed to enter, including her.    

    

"Brother Song Ze, what is the real meaning of this question?" Soong Ze used the question to answer Qin Fei's question, and she also counterattacked.    

    

Qin Fei knew that every negotiation must have an imposing manner of not giving in, so she did not give in and directly confronted him.    

    

Soong Ze was holding a wine cup, his hands slightly trembling, letting the tea that was filled spill onto the tiger's mouth. Fortunately, the tea was not as hot as before.    

    

Qin Fei's sharp eyes saw it and quickly pulled out a tissue from the side to help Soong Ze wipe his hands. She even complained like when she was young, "Brother Song Ze, you are already so old. You can even sprinkle tea, can't you be a little more careful?"    

    

Although it was no longer boiling water, it still burned the back of Soong Ze's hand red.    

    

It had been a long time since Soong Ze and Qin Fei got rid of it at such a close distance. He had dreamt of it in the past. But now, he was not used to it. Soong Ze couldn't help but think of the time when they were young. Whenever they were so close to each other, it must be when Qin Fei was waiting for him to kiss.    

    

Feeling that their positions were somewhat ambiguous, Qin Fei hurriedly retreated back to her seat and sat down. This time, she felt that her heartbeat was somewhat abnormal and even a little chaotic. Even the cushion under her butt seemed to be sitting on pins and needles.    

    

"Brother Song Ze, I just want to know you a little more. Even if it's a friend's request, it's not too much." Qin Fei's attitude was very sincere.    

    

"I think the most important thing right now is Mo's matter. We should not waste our time and energy on unimportant things." Soong Ze hoped to use Mo to confuse Qin Fei's focus.    

    

"Brother Song Ze, why do you reject me so much?" Qin Fei did not understand why Soong Ze's attitude was so distant. Didn't they agree that even if they were separated, they would still be the closest family? Was it wrong for her to care about her brother now? Why did he treat her so coldly?    

    

"Fei Fei, you shouldn't care about me. At least don't care about me when I haven't completely forgotten about you." Some people's concern would only cause him to panic. His heart was already troublesome enough. He didn't want to get even more annoyed because of Qin Fei's matter.    

    

Qin Fei understood. Soong Ze's meaning was that her current concern made him feel pain. His accusations were right. His pain was all given by her. While others were preparing to heal their wounds in peace, she was doing the same thing again. It was a mental torture. Qin Fei suddenly felt that whatever she did was wrong.    

    

"Fei Fei, we can't be as intimate as before. We are just friends." Soong Ze had thought that he would never be able to say those words, but it was still difficult for him to say it this time. However, it was not as heart-wrenching as he had imagined.    

    

"As a friend, shouldn't I know you better?" Soong Ze had already tried to forget himself. This should have been a good thing for Qin Fei, but she suddenly felt a sense of loneliness.    

    

The man who had been standing behind her was finally leaving. If she looked back again, she would not see him smiling and waving at her.    

    

[This chapter is over]